Human

Unfortunately, I still have moments - moments that occur quite often - during which I am extremely human. Moments when I...

...look up pictures of Taylor Lautner (okay, big confession xD)

...eat almost a whole bag of chocolate in one sitting - for no reason

...spend my time fantasizing about a life that I don't have

...yell and get mad because I WANT TO

So...here's to being human. No matter how much we try to be something else, we can't be. We're still fallible, sinful, and, honestly, rather stupid. For all our technology and modern ideas, we still cannot come up with a way to escape emotion.

Loving what I shouldn't...

1 John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world - the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life - is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever."

I've really been struggling with this lately. Maybe "lately" isn't the right word, though; I think this is something I've struggled with for my whole life. I'm a material person. I love shopping. I love owning things. I love the security I feel when I have money in my hands, and I know I can buy what I need (or, more realistically, what I want...).

More than that, I love this world. I love everything about it (okay, besides the sin and the bugs and, well, the bad stuff :P)! I love admiring nature - which isn't inherently bad, since God created it for human enjoyment. I love being around people and squeezing fun out of every experience. I'm real big on experiencing everything.

So how do I let go? How do I release my iron grip on everything that is so temporary??

I'm praying for God to show me the fragility of this life. I want Him to consume me so that I can do nothing without it being for Him <3

I'm going to try to do a Bible study on my own (just me, myself, and I). Although this will cut down on group input (obviously), and will also have to function on less knowledge, I think it will be edifying :)

Oh yeah, what I'm studying: 1 John.

Feel free to join me, online or otherwise :)

1 John 1:5-10
"This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.
"If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us."

All of this could be sort of hopeless (we're sinners, we sin, that's what we do, and sin separates us from God)...except for verse 9: "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"!

Dwell on that for a minute. Doesn't it make you feel so free??